lost.

Words. They are all I have. I don’t believe in my looks. I don’t believe in my personality. I just have my words. Sometimes, that doesn’t help me out too much. But now, all I can rely on is my words. I am dying to love. It kills me to be as lonely as I am. I am terrified this is all I will ever know and I don’t want to die not experiencing the most incredible thing. Such a soulful connection, I long for it more than most and when I stop and think about my lack of it, a little piece of me dies inside.

I have the most amazing friends I could have ever hoped to obtain but they don’t fill that void that I need. I want someone to immerse myself in. I want to be the first thought on someone’s mind. I want to experience love in its entirety. I want to find someone I couldn’t imagine not having in my life, next to me, in the morning. I want to have children one day and I want to know that I matter.

I just want someone to want me.

I want something real.

Repomen.

Rating: 9/10.

This is the best movie I've seen since Inception. Absolutely fantastically scary. When I watch scary movies, the only ones that truly terrify me are the ones I can find myself in. Chucky used to scare me, Jason, Freddie, now it's movies like the Strangers that really creep me out. This movie is about a world where body parts can be manufactured to extend your life. You can get an artificial anything, but the price tag is not cheap, and the payments are no joke. If you fall behind on your payments, repomen come and "claim" the parts back. So with that said, "the Union" which collects the parts has two best men. (Jude Law, aka Remy) and (Forest Whitaker, aka Jake) Remy tries to switch to sales instead of repossession and while doing a repossession, something awful goes wrong....fast forward to Remy gets a heart transplant. After his transplant, he deteriorates mentally and finally sees what is really happening. On a botched repo after his transplant, he runs into a woman who basically has an implant everything. They decide want to start their lives over. (I'm not going to go into much more detail but...) Remy and Beth go on this epic journey to destroy the Central Unit (the place where all organs are scanned and accounted as repossessed) and slowly start scanning each of their parts. In the end, however, the biggest plot twist occurs and I want you to see, so I'm not going to ruin it! Go see this movie, I definitely recommend it. I hope you like it as much as I did.
xoxo,
Sam

Uknown

Rating: 7/10.

I am a huge Liam Neeson fan. I just want everyone to know that. (Look for it soon my friends, Taken 2 is in talks right now!!) With that said, this is not Liam's best movie. This is what I imagine a real dad would have been like in Taken. In this movie, Liam plays Doctor Martin Harris. He's in Germany for a colleague's presentation and shortly after he arrives, some crazy shit goes down. He gets into a car accident and upon waking up from his coma, he finds his life has been replaced with another man pretending to be him. The rest of the movie is him trying to figure out who he really is and running from people hellbent on making sure he doesn't. January Jones is a phenomenal actress, I haven't really seen her in a movie till I saw this one, but she is really great. Diane Kruger is great in this movie as well. If you're in need of a good thriller, go rent this movie from redbox. It's got some awesome moments, some unexpected twists and overall a decent movie.

You, Again

Rating: 6.9/10

Not going to lie, I just didn't want to give this movie a 7. I liked it, it brought some good laughs but again (you'll notice a recurring theme in my posts) I feel like I've seen this movie before or some version of it, the only thing was the actresses in this one make it more kickass than the last one I watched. This movie is about a nerdy high school girl coming back home for her brother's wedding only to find out that her arch nemesis from high school is her new sister-in-law. As if that isn't enough, upon meeting her family, her mother finds out her daughter-to-be's aunt is her arch nemesis. So, the movie is spent trying to derail plans. This movie has very similar revenge "moments" to 27 dresses, the rehearsal dinner is a deja vu moment for me. It's fun for a girl's night, or teens but it's not the first movie I'd grab. Kristen Bell, Jamie Lee Curtis, Sigourney Weaver, Betty White and what's her name work great together and make this movie as enjoyable as it can be.

Buried.

Rating: 2.5/10

Before I slam this movie, I just want to say it's a brilliant idea. The plot is cleverly designed to have things pop out at you and there are a few moments where you just wish for the best for this guy. Ryan Reynolds puts forth 110% on this movie. He is a brilliant actor, I can see it with the emotions he puts forth in this movie. This movie really needs no summary because for the length of the movie he's in buried, trying to get out. (Basically...) However brilliant this movie sounds, it was poorly executed. For the first hour, you just want to stab anyone that answers his phone call saying, "you're where?", "did you just say you're in a box?" "Iraq? We're in Ohio." "what can we do for you?" Then, for me, the ransom thing threw me off. I didn't like the british guy on the phone and the snake was just a time waster. Also, it annoyed me to no end, but in the beginning he has the lighter on for like a campfire in his coffin. Really? The only time I had a really connecting moment with the movie was the end, when the british guy is heard on the phone, "It's Mark White." That line and Ryan's face nearly brought me to tears. Other than that, I don't recommend this movie and if you must, redbox it although you will surely be disappointed, like I was.

No Strings Attached

Rating: 5/10.

Natalie Portman plays Emma, a disconnected medical student resident who has no grip on love, and is content with that. Ashton Kutcher plays Adam, a kid that lives off love and keeps bumping into Emma until she proposes no strings attached sex. This movie had its funny moments, the highlight for me being when Adam makes Emma a period mix cd. However, I give it a five out of ten because Ashton Kutcher has unfortunately played this role once before if you recall from 2005, "A Lot Like Love."
There's nothing wrong with that, just felt it wasn't super original, but overall a decent movie that makes you laugh, and makes you cry and the chick and the guy end up together in the end.

cigarette no-nos

So, I have recently tried to quit smoking. I've been smoking for a year and I honestly can say it's the hardest thing I've ever had to do. Some days I can't smoke a cigarette if I wanted to and some days I need a cigarette so bad I could scream. I shudder at the thought that one little thing could drastically rule over my life so much. I literally can't tell you how many times I pass a gas station a day and think I could just stop in real quick and grab a new pack.
A few years ago if you would have asked me about cigarettes, I would have told you there were filthy, disgusting , 100% not sexy, and a horrible, horrible health habit. Now, knowing all this, I feel like I'm pretty much a slave to it. It makes my throat hurt, I smell awful, and my bank account goes down in increments of 10 bucks almost. The worst thing for me though is when my friends hop into my car and tell me how awful it smells, and I don't even know.
Although last night I made a break-through. For the first time, I let someone snap my cigarettes in half. I didn't use the excuse, "well I just spent seven bucks, and now I have to get my money's worth." I just let him snap them in half. It's kind of gratifying, but at the same time, terrifying. The fact that I can even be emotional about it tells me that I need to stop immediately. I don't understand how I even started smoking.
I have three friends that smoke around me, and they are always telling me they quit. I think it's entirely unfair that they can pick and choose to quit when I need them for support. They tell me they quit and I have no one to smoke with and then they smoke the next day. It's confusing and irritating, and it drives me up a wall. I decided to finally let them know that if we were going to quit, we should quit together. It makes the best solution. If I am never around smokers, I will get the urge to do it less often. That makes it easier for me to quit. This might sound kind of arrogant, or selfish, but the fact of the matter is I need to be on this topic. Smoking is driving me nuts. I hate myself when I smoke, and I hate myself when I need one. It's a lose-lose.
So hopefully, I can fight it, and get better at it, because with all my heart, I truly want to stop smoking and I know that right now is the perfect opportunity to stop.
xoxo,
Sam

what's poppin ma?

First off, I don't know when it developed but our grammar online is atrocious. Yo, str8, sup, ryt3, holla. PLEASE STOP. i h8 ppl who typ3 lyk dis. It takes more effort to spell it out that way and it makes you sound stupid.

xoxo,
Sam