cigarette no-nos

So, I have recently tried to quit smoking. I've been smoking for a year and I honestly can say it's the hardest thing I've ever had to do. Some days I can't smoke a cigarette if I wanted to and some days I need a cigarette so bad I could scream. I shudder at the thought that one little thing could drastically rule over my life so much. I literally can't tell you how many times I pass a gas station a day and think I could just stop in real quick and grab a new pack.
A few years ago if you would have asked me about cigarettes, I would have told you there were filthy, disgusting , 100% not sexy, and a horrible, horrible health habit. Now, knowing all this, I feel like I'm pretty much a slave to it. It makes my throat hurt, I smell awful, and my bank account goes down in increments of 10 bucks almost. The worst thing for me though is when my friends hop into my car and tell me how awful it smells, and I don't even know.
Although last night I made a break-through. For the first time, I let someone snap my cigarettes in half. I didn't use the excuse, "well I just spent seven bucks, and now I have to get my money's worth." I just let him snap them in half. It's kind of gratifying, but at the same time, terrifying. The fact that I can even be emotional about it tells me that I need to stop immediately. I don't understand how I even started smoking.
I have three friends that smoke around me, and they are always telling me they quit. I think it's entirely unfair that they can pick and choose to quit when I need them for support. They tell me they quit and I have no one to smoke with and then they smoke the next day. It's confusing and irritating, and it drives me up a wall. I decided to finally let them know that if we were going to quit, we should quit together. It makes the best solution. If I am never around smokers, I will get the urge to do it less often. That makes it easier for me to quit. This might sound kind of arrogant, or selfish, but the fact of the matter is I need to be on this topic. Smoking is driving me nuts. I hate myself when I smoke, and I hate myself when I need one. It's a lose-lose.
So hopefully, I can fight it, and get better at it, because with all my heart, I truly want to stop smoking and I know that right now is the perfect opportunity to stop.
xoxo,
Sam